For Hannah ♥

Hi.

There are 6,470,818,671 people living. Some are running

scared, some are coming home. Some get through the day by

lying, others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil,

wearing the good, and some are good, struggling with the evil.

Six billion people in this world. Six billion souls, and

sometimes, all you need is one. - One Tree Hill

Back In The Day.

The kids of the 90s are good people. There is so much about this time that makes me smile! 

Do you remember...?

Are you Afraid of the dark?
Arthur

Bear in the big blue house

Brum

Sister Sister

Keenan And Kel

Cheez TV

Fresh prince of belair

Tom and Jerry

Hey Arnold

Kenan +Kel

Recess

Dexters Lab

Little bear

Malcolm In The Middle

The Worst Witch

Pokemon

Rugrats

Saved by the bell

The magic school bus

The smurfs

Short and Sweet

That is all.

Letters to life.

I love letters. Yep, its as simple as that.

To dear...

Joey Tribiani, You make me laugh, alot! "How you doing?"

Sara Grace. I miss you lots and lots and lots right now. Your message this morning made me smile. Your an amazing person and you brightened up my day. Love you the most. x

Modern History. Okay basically, you are a really, really sucky subject. Yep thats right. I dont like you. So please let me pass your exam. Okay thanks heaps.

Ryan, I miss you. Yep, thats right. I sure do. And I think on thursday we are going to hang out? Actually we are definately going to hang out. Good I am glad thats settled. x

Mark, Heeeeeeya. Just letting you know that chocolate crumpets are awesome. Not even lying. Well actually I havent tried them.. but lets just pretend shall we. I mean could you imagine? All the amazingness of a crumpet.. with chocolate? OMGOSH! hahahaa.

My Bed, Snuggling up to the pillow and blanket is like a major highlight of my day. I cannot wait to sleep.

Asher, I want to steal your dog.. I mean.. .  its sooo cute. Hahaha. Lauren the dog whisperer to the rescue. Yep, Im a ninja just admit it!! Thanks for being there:)

Hannah, you are so beautiful. Love you.

Wife & Shelly, I love you both lots. Rach- till death do us part ;)  Us three need to catch up real soon. Sleepover soon? I think so!! xx

Anyone I didnt write a letter to. This is not because I have forgotten you. It is more the face that my eyes are going to pop out of my head due to lack of sleep. Yep its true. I am soooo tired. Love you all. xx

Streeeeess :/

I officially HATE studying. Oh and modern history. Yep, definately modern history. In fact it can go die in a hole. Thats how much I hate it. Anyways enough of my complaining.  Today I had my english exam. I found it really hard. I dont know about everyone else. I am thinking advanced english isnt for me. I guess I will have to wait and see.

Well this afternoon a certain someone said something today that really annoyed me. I would just like to clear things up. I write in this blog to get down my feelings. Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger then someone you know, however I know i have a few close friends who are reading. Even if nobody reads my blog I really dont care. So for you to say that my blog is for people to write about there unimportant lives or for those who have low self esteem? Or big egos? really really annoyed me. In fact, the things i write on here are extremely important to me. So maybe next time, think about what your saying cause it affects others.

Anyways I need some sleep. More exams tomorrow.
Taaaa. xx

When I look at you.

Just a quick post for today. Played an alright game of netball. We won 46-36. Other then that, went shopping with a good friend. It was good to finally catch up even if i only really window shopped.

Should have done a lot more studying tonight then I did, exam week starts monday. As a wannabe member of Outcast I would like to say a big "Heeeeeeeeya" to markus. You know what I mean (:  I am missing Sara Grace lots and lots today as usual. 

I send my love out to an extremely close friend of mine who has a bit going on over the next few days. Wishing him and his family all the best. I know everything will be okay. Much love.

Heading into the city tommorrow for mothers day. Should be a good day. Thats all for now. Taaa. xx

Be true to yourself.

IM BACK EVERYONE!!
Well I am sure you all missed me heaps and heaps. You see for the last 3 days I have been on a leadership camp. The purpose was to get a group of girls throughout the school from different grades together. Some of these girls were confident others not so much who needed some extra encouragment. I was chosen to be a role model or leader but I did realise that even though I was one of the eldest and strongest there I benifited as well.  I realised over the past few days how easy it is to feel intimidated or feel as though others are "better" than me. Now I know this sounds silly but It had me thinking that its not only the younger girls who have these issues.  I really learnt something over the past few days and I wanted to share.

No matter how old, pretty, smart, sporty or outgoing you are, have the courage and confidence to be yourself and you will shine through. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and everyone is truly beautiful in their own way. Dont let others get you down.  People will come and go in your life be strong enough to hold on to those who care and let go of the ones who dont. Just be true to yourself.<3    

On another note, I know my last post was deep and depressing and I just wanted everyone to know I am fine. Actually I am great! This camp did me wonders and I am trying to think positive these days!
Exams are this week so I probably wont be posting much due to studying. Well I am extremely tired. My eyes are going to pop out of my head.

Goodnight my whole 4 fans,
Taaaa. xx

Sometimes, things have to get worse before they can get better.

What is going on in this world. I miss the old days. Lately my mind has been all over the place. Sometimes I find I cant even think straight. Trying to write this blog is hard enough I really dont know where to start..

Whats going on in my mind...
Well to me it seems that everybody is moving on. This in general scares me. I dont like change, although I know sometimes it is for the better. I am finding that I need space. Space from all the problems in my life.  I dont mean to sound like a whingy person and usually Im not. I dont like to tell people about things that bother me. This is because 1. I dont want to bring them down. 2. Its generally not there problem. 3. I dont like to think I have problems. haha
But I have become someone who I dont recognise. I just need to get away for a while. Not run away of course. That is like the total opposite, i just wish i could press pause. A bit like the movie click. Just pause for a bit, slow everything that seems to be moving so fast and regain my thoughts.

Family is basically the most important thing in my life. I dont know how I would ever get by without them.  I am lucky enough to have some friends who may as well be family. You guys know who you are. Lately I have been thinking about things. I am a huge believer that nobody should change who they are for someone else.  This is where i show my hypercritical side, as I have in the past found myself to become a totally different person. I have lost sight of myself and dont really know how to get that back. There are only a few people who know the real me, and they are the ones who mean everything to me.

I have  finally come to a time in my life where I have become sick and tired of pretending to be something or someone I am not. I will not walk around anymore letting people hurt me, and I dont want to have this attitude anymore. I dont deserve the way I have been treated. I wont stand for it anymore.

Growing apart is not something I like to think about. But it is becoming a re-occuring factor in my life. Sometimes people just fade away. Its not necesarily because there is no love or friendship but it more or less refers back to my idea of needing space. I feel some really important people in my life are either growing apart from myself, or each other. Some of these people I cannot possible live without, and I am scared of losing them. Wow, i just admitted being scared. Breaking Point!

Anyways, no matter how long I sit here and try to explain how i feel its probably not going to make much sense. I know I have spend alot of time talking about the things that are upsetting me but of course my life is still filled with happy things!  Well I know I am going to read this tomorrow and realise how amazingly ridiculous this all sounds. (I get emotional when I am tired, and generally say ALL the wrong things.) I am extremely sorry to bore anyone who may be reading, if you made it this far down in the post.

Just quickly, I have a special friend who wrote something today that really touched me. It made me smile and made me realise how lucky I am to have her in my life. She means a great deal to me and is a true friend. She knows who she is. I love you.

These were my 3 favourite pictures of today! Just thought I would share them!

Just another post.

Sorry I havent been blogging at all this past week & I dont really have an excuse for that. Been a little zoned out. Had a few things on my mind and have made a really close friend in my ipod these last few days. 
Had sport yesterday and went ice skating! It was good fun. Note to self: Pack a jumper and long pants when ice skating. A skirt just wont do.
Today was interesting. I think I experienced every possible emotion in one day. I had cross country. I never really had intentions to run in it. With a little inspiration from a friend however, I decided to just give it a go and suprised myself. I managed to come 3rd which I was extremely happy with!! This means I now go to zone.Netball tomorrow. Havent played in about 4 weeks. So I am pretty pumped. Should be good although I dont think my legs are going to agree after todays run!!
Oh and one last thing. I have tohave an operation on my hand. Thats right. An operation! The biggest sook out. I have a ganglion. Also known as a cist, and apparently it has to go. So yeah, I think that is all I have to report.